searching

If I could trace the lines that ran
Between your smile and your sleight of hand
I would guess that you put something up my sleeve
Now every time I see your face the bells ring in a far-off place
We can find each other this way I believe
Come and find me now

There is no earth, no tomb, no dates
graven into stone
No place to come to visit you
to speak to you to close my eyes
and hold you in my heart

Though I'm here in this far off place
My air is not this time and space
I draw you close with every breath
You don't know it's right until it's wrong
You don't know it's yours until it's gone
I didn't know that it was home ‘til you up and left
Come and find me now

existence even in death should be binary, at least for now
but, where are you, the unburied one
the childsized hole carved into my once whole heart
i cried all night
because i was made to hold the pain in a way I must never have been made to hold you

I keep you in a flower vase
With your fatalism and your crooked face
With the daisies and the violet brocades
And I keep me in a vacant lot
In the ivy and forget-me-nots
Hoping you will come and untangle me one of these days
Come and find me now

(words in italics by J. Ritter)