Today I was deeply sick...sick like I have been for seven months now, and then sick of being sick. Between the two of them, they nearly drained the life out of me. How do we get life back when it is draining out? I know the Lord is our divine source for everything, but sometimes I feel like I cannot access that source. At least not in the way I want to.
I want it to wash over me and heal me completely. But it hasn't happened like that. Not yet.
The Lord has sent me someone who forced me to watch wonderful old movies this afternoon, someone who sat by me, and held me, and didn't care that I had no intention of washing my hair today. He shared the life inside of him with me.
This weekend I felt like I heard a lot of good teaching, but Sunday's teaching threw me a little. I am having trouble balancing my understanding of a God who loves me and wants to "kiss my face off" and a God who looks at me with contempt.
This is honest and the way I feel. I am not normally like this. It embarrasses me that I am thinking this way.
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